Manifesting Me by Leah E. Reinhart

Author:Leah E. Reinhart
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: She Writes Press
Published: 2018-06-05T04:00:00+00:00

So, now, I had to tell my mother about my abnormal pap smear so that I could find a doctor who did the cryo procedure. We found a doctor at the Women’s Health Clinic in Berkeley, but it wasn’t subsidized like Planned Parenthood. Her name was Dr. Simpson, and, though she was great at what she did, her bedside manner was a little blunt. After she did the examination and read the paperwork from Planned Parenthood, she explained that I did not have cancer, but sexually-transmitted warts that can lead to cancer if untreated. Nowadays, they have the HPV vaccine, but not in the eighties. So, all I knew was that I had an STD and needed to have this cryo treatment that freezes the cells. I made the appointment and waited.

A few days later the doctor called to tell me that my blood work had come up with something else. Oh, goodie! She informed me that not only did I have condyloma (genital warts), I also had gonorrhea, and I should probably also get an AIDS test because my immune system was weak. All this information came over the phone at work, mind you.

I was shocked, not to mention scared out of my mind, and it seemed unbelievable. None of my friends had any STDs, and they had been having sex for a much longer time and had lots more partners. Unfortunately for Annie, I made that clear to her. “How could I have a venereal disease and not you or Phoenix? That’s not fair. You guys are the ones who’ve been around.” Of course, I was sobbing at this point. I knew it was a messed-up thing for me to say, but I was so upset. It was one thing to have a curable STD, but a whole other thing to talk about AIDS. This was 1988 when AIDS was a real death sentence.

Anyway, I had the cryo appointment, and no one had prepared me for how long it would take or how much it would hurt. I also had a penicillin shot for the gonorrhea, and, thank the Lord above, I did not test positive for AIDS. I was cured of all these sexually transmitted diseases, and I was never having sex again! I went off birth control pills, so I would have to use condoms and couldn’t catch anything else.

Now that sex seemed like nothing but trouble to me, it was so obvious that God had punished me for leaving the church. It is said that sex is an expression of love, but, up to this point, there was never any love involved.

I had better luck doing drugs and drinking, so that that’s what I went back to. I was mostly into drinking and just used speed or cocaine when I got too drunk and didn’t want the spins. I had started beauty school and needed to focus on that, too. Off to school, parties, and socializing I went.

I had started beauty school in September of 1987 after I graduated from high school.

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